Suffering is Free

I started getting migraines about a year and a half ago. My sister has gotten them for her whole life, and when she had one, I never really understood what she was going through.

It’s just not a really bad headache. Yes, there is intense pain. I describe it as an alien creature with a gardening trowel trying to dig its way out of my head from behind my right eye. Along with the pain, for me there comes intense nausea, seeing wavy lines, feeling dizzy, and having my senses heighten so much that light and sound are painful. There also seems to be a general sense of disconnectedness. Like I am trying to escape my body but something is cruelly pinning me down.

When I see the wavy lines, the song “Wave of Mutilation” by the Pixies always pops into my head.[1] But, the best song that really captures a migraine is Mr. Bungle’s “Goodbye Sober Day,” particularly starting at about 3 minutes in.

It’s unpleasant.

And my migraines last for days.

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Good Luck with That

I’m sick of hearing people say: “If you believe in something and work really hard, you can do it!”

It’s luck, people. Deal with it.

And the pharoah gets all the credit.

Okay, so maybe it’s not all luck. Sometimes hard work is rewarded, but often times it isn’t. I suppose this all depends on what one means by being “rewarded,” but usually it means something like praise, recognition, financial compensation, or even just pride in a hard day’s work. But, pride doesn’t put food on the table. Not to mention, it doesn’t take a whole lot to have the rug pulled out from under your pride with a nice bit of criticism.

The truth of the matter is that some people achieve their dreams and other people don’t, and it’s just a lie that hard work is the key to achieving dreams. For one, not all dreams require hard work, but more importantly, there are a lot of other contributing factors.

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